*Midnite Blues*

31.10.2010 at 1.25am...
midnite blues dah datang....!!!
saya ngantuk tapi tak bleh tido agi sebabnya tengah tunggu download finish... lpas ni br saya tido.. sambil2 tunggu ni datang laa pulak blues tengah malam ni...

you're amazing juz the way u are...
when u smile..the whole world stop for a while...
you are amazing juz the way you are....

yes u are... you are amazing juz the way u are.. the way God created u...
i dont know why im falling for u... maybe its u.. juz u...
you amazing juz the way you are... im juz terpikat kot... dunt know why.. dunt know why the person has to be U... only He knows what He prepared for us...

you are soo silent nowadays... but im not blaming U... maybe its my fault... my fault juz.. im falling for U...
but i will get used to it.. i will get used to what ive been through before...without you...i dunt know what else i need to do...
i dunt know how to...
i dunt know how to keep track of u...
im juz being me... that gurl...
the gurl who is shy...
the gurl who is blur...
the gurl who is always doing everything without deeply think bout it...
im juz being that gurl....
im afraid that im expected will come true....
takot sangat ape yang saya expect akan jadi betol....
please....!! dont...

i cant hold the urge to disturb u...
i cant hold the urge to get to know u...
i cant hold it...
please forgive me.... im selfish here..juz because to make u mine... im sorry....
i know.. saya tau awak takkan selesa kalo camtu...
tapi saya tak leh tahan laa awak rase ni...
walaupon segala bagai da saya buat..
saya akan cube awak...saya tau awak tak suka....

ermmm..lelaki...guys...boy... wateva u can call them...
my statement before... NO MAN NO CRY... (tiada berkenaan dgn lagu n irama,ok..!!)
my opinion as a gurl... IF
takde lelaki kami (perempuan, gurl) tak nangis...
takde lelaki kami tak susah hati...
lelaki takde..kami tak perlu pikir banyak...

*my experienced...
lelaki mmg akan buatkn pompuan nangis....
lelaki akan buatkn pompuan susah ati...
selagi tak puas ati dorg tengok kita nangis... lelaki akan buat ape je tuk buatkn gurl nangis... tak kesah dgn ape cara sekalipon.. walaupon cara tersebut sgt melukakan... asalkan mereka puas ati...
saya sendiri.. da puas menangis da... N sekarang saya rase da kering kot air mutiara tu.. ataupon hati saya da keras... ntahlaa... kene ade lelaki yang betol2 tuk ketok hati saya balik ni.. tapi...im not sure who that guy... even now..ade laa a guy yang ketok hati saya... tapi saya tak tau samada saya yang syok sendiri o die memang meant what he said.. ntah laa... i cant tell.. only he, the one yang tau ape y die cakapkn... only he knew ape yang die maksudkan.... i dunt now...
awak...cakaplaa sesuatu... i need to know... so that..nanti saya akan tau nak buat ape lepas ni... walaupon sy tau ape yang awk nak... tapi sekarang situasi da jadi lain da awak.. situasi da berubah.... saya takot dgn ape yang akan jadi in future... i only hope for the best tuk awak...

once u said...banyak sangat laa awak cakap... tapi sume yang awak cakap... i still remember.. saya maseh ingat ape yang awak cakap... semua tu saya tak lupa... tapi takpelaa.... saya akan simpan these memories kemas2....!! saya takkan biarkn sesape masuk kaco memory ni... i will keep it for myself.... sorry for everything...!!

saya minta maap kalo saya demand... demand...?? ape yang saya demand ek..? hehee~~~
saya tak tau nak buat ape... saya tak tauuuu.....

im speechless da ni.. tak tau nk tulis ape da....
saya harapkan yang tebaik tuk awak...!!! i meant it everything i said.....

this week... this weekend... is my last weekend here in DAMAI,KL... because im moving to Serdang this Nov... ermm so this week saya akan enjoy...!!!
tapi kne kemaskn all my stuff... huhuu~~` penaaat.... xde sape nak tolong ke...? hehee~~~ i wish...!! kalo laa saya ni doraemon... da lame saya kecilkn barang2 saya ni sume.. senang sikit nak kemas n pindah... aaaish.... i wish...!!! ahahhaa~~~

oklaa... da ngantuk bangat ni.. need to sleep right now... tak sangka tiap2 malam macam mengharap je yang u will call me.. but... ade gak terpikir nak call awak and sembang2... tapi selalunyaa kalo saya call o msg ke wateva laa.. selalunyaa pasti tak kene mase and tempat... selalu nye macam tulaa... not the right time... taktau bile time yang sesuai tuk call awak... sbb tu sy senyap je... sbb tu saya senyap je tak tau nak contact camane.... huhuuu~~~ sorry....!!

oklaa.. nak akhir2 pon sambung lg... hahahaa~~~
ok... last piece from me....

i hope for the best...
i hope u know the right thing for u...
i hope there is future....
i hope there is 'us'...

luv,
enna... the gurl who missing U soo much....
"midnite blues"
2.22am


....THE PART OF ME IS MISSING U.....