*Midnite Blues*

31.10.2010 at 1.25am...
midnite blues dah datang....!!!
saya ngantuk tapi tak bleh tido agi sebabnya tengah tunggu download finish... lpas ni br saya tido.. sambil2 tunggu ni datang laa pulak blues tengah malam ni...

you're amazing juz the way u are...
when u smile..the whole world stop for a while...
you are amazing juz the way you are....

yes u are... you are amazing juz the way u are.. the way God created u...
i dont know why im falling for u... maybe its u.. juz u...
you amazing juz the way you are... im juz terpikat kot... dunt know why.. dunt know why the person has to be U... only He knows what He prepared for us...

you are soo silent nowadays... but im not blaming U... maybe its my fault... my fault juz.. im falling for U...
but i will get used to it.. i will get used to what ive been through before...without you...i dunt know what else i need to do...
i dunt know how to...
i dunt know how to keep track of u...
im juz being me... that gurl...
the gurl who is shy...
the gurl who is blur...
the gurl who is always doing everything without deeply think bout it...
im juz being that gurl....
im afraid that im expected will come true....
takot sangat ape yang saya expect akan jadi betol....
please....!! dont...

i cant hold the urge to disturb u...
i cant hold the urge to get to know u...
i cant hold it...
please forgive me.... im selfish here..juz because to make u mine... im sorry....
i know.. saya tau awak takkan selesa kalo camtu...
tapi saya tak leh tahan laa awak rase ni...
walaupon segala bagai da saya buat..
saya akan cube awak...saya tau awak tak suka....

ermmm..lelaki...guys...boy... wateva u can call them...
my statement before... NO MAN NO CRY... (tiada berkenaan dgn lagu n irama,ok..!!)
my opinion as a gurl... IF
takde lelaki kami (perempuan, gurl) tak nangis...
takde lelaki kami tak susah hati...
lelaki takde..kami tak perlu pikir banyak...

*my experienced...
lelaki mmg akan buatkn pompuan nangis....
lelaki akan buatkn pompuan susah ati...
selagi tak puas ati dorg tengok kita nangis... lelaki akan buat ape je tuk buatkn gurl nangis... tak kesah dgn ape cara sekalipon.. walaupon cara tersebut sgt melukakan... asalkan mereka puas ati...
saya sendiri.. da puas menangis da... N sekarang saya rase da kering kot air mutiara tu.. ataupon hati saya da keras... ntahlaa... kene ade lelaki yang betol2 tuk ketok hati saya balik ni.. tapi...im not sure who that guy... even now..ade laa a guy yang ketok hati saya... tapi saya tak tau samada saya yang syok sendiri o die memang meant what he said.. ntah laa... i cant tell.. only he, the one yang tau ape y die cakapkn... only he knew ape yang die maksudkan.... i dunt now...
awak...cakaplaa sesuatu... i need to know... so that..nanti saya akan tau nak buat ape lepas ni... walaupon sy tau ape yang awk nak... tapi sekarang situasi da jadi lain da awak.. situasi da berubah.... saya takot dgn ape yang akan jadi in future... i only hope for the best tuk awak...

once u said...banyak sangat laa awak cakap... tapi sume yang awak cakap... i still remember.. saya maseh ingat ape yang awak cakap... semua tu saya tak lupa... tapi takpelaa.... saya akan simpan these memories kemas2....!! saya takkan biarkn sesape masuk kaco memory ni... i will keep it for myself.... sorry for everything...!!

saya minta maap kalo saya demand... demand...?? ape yang saya demand ek..? hehee~~~
saya tak tau nak buat ape... saya tak tauuuu.....

im speechless da ni.. tak tau nk tulis ape da....
saya harapkan yang tebaik tuk awak...!!! i meant it everything i said.....

this week... this weekend... is my last weekend here in DAMAI,KL... because im moving to Serdang this Nov... ermm so this week saya akan enjoy...!!!
tapi kne kemaskn all my stuff... huhuu~~` penaaat.... xde sape nak tolong ke...? hehee~~~ i wish...!! kalo laa saya ni doraemon... da lame saya kecilkn barang2 saya ni sume.. senang sikit nak kemas n pindah... aaaish.... i wish...!!! ahahhaa~~~

oklaa... da ngantuk bangat ni.. need to sleep right now... tak sangka tiap2 malam macam mengharap je yang u will call me.. but... ade gak terpikir nak call awak and sembang2... tapi selalunyaa kalo saya call o msg ke wateva laa.. selalunyaa pasti tak kene mase and tempat... selalu nye macam tulaa... not the right time... taktau bile time yang sesuai tuk call awak... sbb tu sy senyap je... sbb tu saya senyap je tak tau nak contact camane.... huhuuu~~~ sorry....!!

oklaa.. nak akhir2 pon sambung lg... hahahaa~~~
ok... last piece from me....

i hope for the best...
i hope u know the right thing for u...
i hope there is future....
i hope there is 'us'...

luv,
enna... the gurl who missing U soo much....
"midnite blues"
2.22am


....THE PART OF ME IS MISSING U.....

..aii..cuti..cuti..pe nk jadi ni...? bole pula last minute postponed...!!

duuh.....!!!!
Ape ni bosh...?
ape management ni...? last2 minute baru bagitau yang nak postponed cuti... ape kes ni..? aaissh... da la da rancang siap2 nk buang masa kat umah cuti ni.. siap sume mmy sibings balik umah lg... br nak kumpul ramai2.. skrg ni d xdapat cuti.... aaaii...
bgus yelaa.. memang laa bagus sbb dapat cuti raya aji... tapi gak abeslaa perancangan ni... huhuuu~~~ sedey~~~

camane ni...? xdapat cuti depaa..tp dapat cuti raye aji..raye aji ape de... mmg laa raya kot... kat umah lg... tp tak sume yang balik kampung... huhu~~ pastu nnti sensorang je kat umah... aii..bosan ah nnti... huhuuu~~~ pe da...!!!
kalo ade y sudi luangkan mase bersama takpe gak.. hahahaa... berangan jelaa lebey... hahahaa....

tp pape pon dgr2 memang da official cuti ditunda tu... cutiraya aji semigu... aai... pe nk jd ni... huhu~~ raya pon raya laa... harap2 raya ni pon bawa erti jugak... ahahhaa~~~

ermmm ckp2 pasal cuti.. tepikir pulak lusa my member nk kawen... tp weeknd ni sibuk sikit laa.. huhuu~~~ dgn nk kne kemas barang nyee... dgn nk kuar nye.. dgn write up nyee... dgn nk g ziarah umah kwnnya... aai.. cmne2... huhuuu~~~
sabtu ni,kawan kawen,... aina... sampai gak jodoh die ye... cepat gitu..!! congratez...!! ermmm org lain cepat je... tp sy..? ermmm nk nampak cincin merisik pon jauh skali... hahahaa... yelaa calonn pon tadak...!!!
hahaha... yep.. coz i dunt have any... n now... not sure if im gonna be in her shoe.. but i will someday... when im done... when im meeting with my Mr.Right... yeah...!! hahahaa... bilee laa... bilee laa Mr.Right tu nk muncul n said it.. said that he will be with me... said that he will be mine forever coz i will be with u forever... hahahaa..... i wish....!!!

ermmm... for my Mr.Right... i dedicated to u this song....
...talkig to the moon... courtesy of Bruno Mars...

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sund goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away....

i know u are aout there..dear...!!
somewhere far away.........
come to me...plez...!!

best regard...
from Ms.Right TO my little Mr.Right with love...

..insan yang bernama 'Lelaki'...

guys...lelaki... kenapa lelaki...??
kenapa lelaki itu...??

lelaki...
anda adalah lelaki yang sepatutnya menjadi ketua keluarga...
anda adalah tulang belakang keluarga..
tak kisah laa your own family or to your parents..
anda adalah kekuatan mereka...
kekuatan bagi setiap insan bernama perempuan...

lelaki...
anda yang sepatutnya melindungi kaum perempuan...
anda yang sepatutnya menjaga mereka...
anda yang sepatutnya menghormati mereka seperti anda menghormati ibu anda...

lelaki....
anda adalah suami kepada setiap isteri.....
anda adalah tulang belakang isteri anda....
anda adalah kekuatan si isteri..
tanpa anda...isteri hilang punca....

errmmm....... what should i say about guys... in reality...
well.. now..not many guys can be trusted... only a few i guess...
bcoz now..so many kinds of guys we can see... as u can see here in this world..in the tv.. radio.. macam2 berita bout lelaki.. mat rempit... n whatnot...

the guys that u can trust...??? so little... its hard to find...
once you find one u should never let go of him...
once you know guy you can trust... you should hold onto him...
never let go... because he is the one you trusted...
because in near future...he is the one who will be the guy you wanted as above...

in my life... there were a few guys in my life....
1-my sayaaang ayah...he is the great father in the world... i love him so muuch... father that i love more than myself...ayah..i will never forget of what u've done.. n sorry sesgt coz slalu bantah ckp ayah.. selalu je nk menang ugak ngn ayah... selalu kalo ayh ckp A..ena akn kate B.. sorry ayah.. tp u de best laa...!! XOXO...
2-my Bro..he also always be my side... thanks bro.. i dunt know how im gonna survive if u r not by my side...maseh sy igt..for the first time im here in KL... my bro in nilai.. wateva prob i faced here...he always help.. no matter what... the one incident that i will not forget is.. when u met with an accident... i felt like hell that time... im afraid that we r gonna lose u,bro... however, thanks to God for saving u...THANK YOU ALLAH...bersyukur sgt2.... luv u...
3-my little bro... he always cari pasal ngn sy... dr die kecik sampai sekarang kami asyk gado je.. but im still love him..he still my bro wat.. we share the same genes kn... hahaha...
4-U..awak...i'll never forget u till the end awk.. sbb awklaa y bt sy jd tak tentu smpai skrg...sbb awaklaa sy jd berani...sy tak penah lupa awkk..dr dulu mmg sy tak penah lupa awk...XOXO...sblm mane2 lelaki lain selain di atas hadir dlm hidup sy..awk telah hadir dlm hidup sy secara tak lgsg...awk y sy suka selame ni..awk y sy igt...sy suka awk...DULU..KINI..N SELAMENYA.....wpon akhirannya masih kabur..sy tak kesah awk...asalkn sy sempat kenal ngn awk...sy harap sgt pengakhiran ceritera kita indah...kita hanye merancang...tp Dia yang tentukan segalanya.. semoga ape y berlaku ade hikmah disebaliknya... sy sentiasa doa.... amin~~
5-dia aka D.. D hadir dlm hidup sy lepas sy sorg2..D...im sorry D.. dia hadir dlm hidup sy tanpa sy sedari...sy hargai kemunculan dia dlm hidup sy walaupon sekejap.. sy hargai dia seadanya walaupon sy.....takpelaa... sy hargai dia seadanya.. thanks tuk dia atas segalanya.. sbb dia sy kenal dunia cinta ni.. sbb dia sy kenal org bernama lelaki...pape pon thanks tuk dia...

inilaa lelaki2 yang memberi impak yang besar dlm hidup sy...
inilaa lelaki2 yang buat saya kenal dunia ni....
n awak sy harap awk akn jd lelaki terakhir dlm hidup sy...
sy harap awk lelaki itu...
sy harap awk laa Mr.Right sy....yang sy tunggu2 selame ni...
sy hanye berharap awk... usaha...
tp Tuhan yng tentukan....
semuanya ditangan Dia..Yang Maha Agung lagi Maha Mengetahui...
saya berdoa kpd Dia...sy percaya...

awak...dulu..kini..& selamenya...sy takkan penah lupakan awk...

akhir kate sy...
i miss u...
i heart u...
i will never forget u...
im into u...
sy gembira awk..
gembira dlm duka....

luv,
enna...XOXO....

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21.10.2010...was a fairytale...!!~~

today...21.10.2010... thursday... around 530+pm kot...
i met with my fren at pwtc bcoz nk ambik baju ngn die..jersy like tshirt...
n i got it a day after that bcoz im totally forgot laa... hahaa... n its pink... pinnnnk gileeer.. ahhaha... papepon thanks buddy...

n that day.. tanpa disengajakan because of my fren ni.. sy jumpa die... sy jumpa awk secara tak langsung... im sorry of my reaction that day... bcoz im lost..i dunt expect to see u in such a day.. n im not ready... but..thanks God n thanks to her..finally we met.. i only can say im sorry... ahahahaha....
after a long time, we met jugak.. tapi sy takot sbb im not confident enuf laa...
usualy after pape pasti sy akn rase.. im not fit..im not fit into ur wateva.. but let it be... im happy.. coz i can see u right infront of my face...in spite of wat happend..i dunt care.. i need to enjoy that moment..bcoz i dunt know bile lg we can meet after this.. ntah laa awk...
that day...
was a fairytale for me.. i dunt know bout u.. n im still waiting for u... ahaha.. wateva... sy tak berani awk.. sbb sy tau sape sy...sbb sy tau kita hanye kawan.. i know.. n im accepting that.. tp takpelaa awk.. sy cakap pon sy tak rugi ape2.. tp kalo sy tak cakap..sy y rugi akhirnya... i hope u understand...

awak...bile nk decide... sy nak tau ur decision ni... ntahlaa... i really wanna know.. tak kesah laa ape jua decision skali pon... awk nk ckp sy busybody pon cakaplaa... but.i really need to know...

semlm..sembg ngn kawan2... she said that of coz laa we cannot forget.. tapi kita kne buka hati kite ni tuk org lain jugak... sampai bile nk tunggu...
tp ntahlaa... sy sanggup tunggu awk... ahahhaa~~~~

sy da cube bukak hati ni..tp cannot.. bcoz my head was fully occupied by u...
hurrmmmm.... ntahlaa awk...

ermmm kalo kawn mmg ramai.. tp semunya hanye kawan je... colleagues...coursemate..childhood fren... schoolmate dulu2... tu semua kawn.. tp ade jugak y jelesh... jeles kaw2 punya tu.. aish... ntah laa..

that day....
for the first time we meet...
sy sgt takot... tgn n kaki sy sume ketar2... sejuk2 n flushing je rase..
sy sgt nervous n sgt mengigil awk time tu... sampai sy tak tau nk react cmne... smpaikn sy tak tau nk ckp ape... sy tak tau nk pikir ape... sorry... i shud not react like that kn awk... after a moment sampailaa kita duduk kat meja tu lame2.. barulaa im ok... barulaa sy rase sy bole bernafas... i can breath finally... hehee~~
thanks to uncle tu.. hahaha~~~~ he is good.. thanks uncle....

that day....
n after a while..she went away...n im like.. wat shud i do.. wat shud i do with u... sy xtau awk.. sy rase kekok sgt... sbb sy tak biase berdua ngn guy y sy tak biase jumpa... palpitation time tu sume ade laa.. hahahaa~~~
sampaikn bile awk tnye sy ckp balik laa.. sbbb da tak tau nk bt pe lg.. lgpon awk de kje. u bz that time.. its not a proper time.. but still.. im happy.. ahahaha~~ lainla kalo awk nk sy tunggu... haha... but i noe its not gonna happend... coz we just fren.. i knew that... still.. im into u... hahahhaa~~~

that day.........
im hoping there will be another day like that...
im hoping to see u again...
hahaha~~~ juz hope....
... i "like" u... =D

finally...
that day... was a fairytale...
im hoping for another fairytale....

luv,
enna....
budak y 'suka' awk dr dulu till now...

...im into u....

a few days passed by...
with joy n sadness.. the sadness is..i still dunt know the answer to my life. the answer that maybe can influence my other part of mine.. i hope i will hear from u soon.. the answer that will make me happy n touch... ahhaa~~~ im hoping... but its all depends on u... the joy was..i finished mt clinical exam already..the only one left is theory exam this friday.. even today pon i tak pegi wad...haha.. takpelaa i nak finishkn forensik ni tp.....no case.. sampaikn staff kat forensik dept tu cakap p bunuh org laa kalo nk case.. ahhaa... kesian die pasti da boosan sbb ramai y call tanye pasal case kn encik.. takpelaa tu mm da keje encik nak bt cmne... hehee....

ermm.. few days passed by...
i hope i know what r u thinking...
i hope i know what r u doing...*some of it yes.. hehee...not detail laa.. kalo nk detail mampus laa nk cite.. ahhaa...
i hope i'll get to know u better...
i hope there is light for us..
i hope u wont disappointed me...
i dunt now what am i hoping for...
wat if....
what if...
what if... u r not mine...
what if... u r not belong to me..
there are soo many possibility...
the truth is..i have to get ready for all possibility that might happen...
i have too get ready for all consequences of wat i said n wat ive done...

i always doing something without thinking...
i always doing something because my intuition told me too..
i will do wat wanna do..o wat i think is right...
im sorry...
as for ur problem... i dunt know...
im really afraid that i will losing u for the second time..
cukuplaa sekali...kalo kali kedua pon sy kehilangan awak.. i'll give up laa...
for the 1st time...its ok becoz we are too young..young for all these.. hahaa... maybe.. but now..
before this...knowing u all alone..single..made me happy.. n thought that i have chance...
chance to make u mine...
but now...... it seems blurred...
now.. the chance is too little...
im afraid i dunt get that chance...
i'll try to fight for u.. try to get to u...
i dunt know if its enuf for u to see that im into u...
i dunt know if its enuf for u to see that im not giving up on u...
just tell me wat shud i doo..
tell me wat shud i say..
tell me how shud i react...
tell me wat u want me to do...
im just me.. a human being... im not perfect... sometimes people make mistakes dear.. so do i..

im a girl though...
a gurl like me..who know the meaning of shy...
a gurl that wont give up on u...
a girl that will be loyal to you...
a girl that wont break ur heart...
a girl that always appreciate what she got n wat she has...
a girl who know how much love she has for u...
a girl who know what she want the most..
a girl that will be always be by ur side *as well as my family members*

i dont want to lose u for the second time.. enuf for the very first time..
but..
if its true that im losing u again..
i will be by ur side...
i'll pray for u...

ntahlaa awk.. sy xtau nk ckp pe..xtau nk ckp pe selg sy xtau ape y awk rase n will decide... sy pasrah je kalo awk bukan tuk sy...

sy btol2 xtau ape y awk rase...
ape y awk pikir...
ape y awk pikir ttg sy...
awk penah bgtau sy y u like ur single status now... thats y i'll try be friend with u n xnk serabutkn awk ngn kerenah sy... awk kn ckp sy ni "bolok laa".. hahahaa...
mmg pon.. kdg2 sy clumsy... kadg sy xtau pon sy buat ape..sy maen buat je n ckp je ape y sy nk ckp o buat tanpa pikir dulu..then akirnya mgkn sy bole mnyesal.. huhuu~~
sbb sy tau awk still nk maintain single n dptkn ape y awk nk... sbb tu sy xkaco awk.. im giving u space there for ur self...
tp kn awk...bile sy tau hal ni...sy xleh pkir byk.. y sy tau sy xnk sy terlepas awk lg..sy xnk kehilangan awk lg...
..I WANNA MAKE U MINE,DEAR...

sy mcm da xkesah da awk kalo awk nk pikir sy ni camane...
y sy tau sy tak nk kehilangan awk lg..
sy xnak... uhuhuu~~~

tp pertemuan,jodoh, ajal semuanya di tangan tuhan...
Dia y tentukn semuanaya... kita hanye berusaha... sy hanye berusaha awk...
semuanya ketentuan Dia...
sy hnya perlu percaya..believe n doa...
semoga akhirnya membawa hikmah..... amin~~~

...awak..sy akn kuatkn diri sy tuk awk...

there was something happened...!!
its october now..then, november..december... n no more 2010.. 2011 will come.. i dunt want another year full of surprise... but..wat to do. only He know what will happen.. the Al-Mighty...
last raya was amazing to me bcoz i got all i wanted except dat laa.. then..i continued my life as it is.. macam biasa.. pegi class..pegi wad.clerking all that things that im supposed to do..nothing much happen that gave a crack on my day until that one fine evening..... i got a news.. dunt know to classified it as a bad o a good news... hurmm...

sebabnya i dunt know... i really2 dunt know..
at first.. i doubt it..n i think it juz a fake news..n i told my self ..it was just a bad dream...o just kidding news... hahaha... wat i need to say... im juz speechless... dont know wat to say to u..really speechless.. bak kate org.. diluah mati mak ditelan mati bapak... sampaikan bole diibaratkn cam itu... sbb this news sgt2 terkesan kot... hahaha..

pada suatu hari y hening lg bosan.. after class..cam biasalaa balik bilik je online kalo rajin.. tapi most of time camtulaa... aissh..tp aritu xde p tgok ammar pulak.. sbb crite "ammar" tu xde kat tv..so juz sit dlm bilik je.. n online...
bosan punya bosan..tanpa fikir panjang... tergerak hati laa nk tegur seseorg ni... i got a feedback btw... n hav a short cit chat...
suddenly... die bgtau..y die akn bertunang... wat de heck is going on.... at first... im shocked ok...!! real shock punya.. tp xde laa sampai nk pengsan pulakk...coz die adalah seseorg bgku.. wpon aku xtau ape sebenarnya y ku rase.. y pasti im comfortable ngn die..i think i can be myself kot.. i dont need to pretend... im speechless.. dont know what to say.. but then.. sy control perasaan ni n buat2 cam xde perasan.. but actually..it snap my heart badly... after a while i try i believe that it was juz a fake.. a lie... but.. a whole nite n the next day also i cant stop myself from thinking bout it... t gave me a great effect...i cant sleep.. i even cant pay attention.... but my daily life as usual laa.. hehee~~ only a part of me are really affected by that..
then... i got t know that die saje mainkan sy..for awhile im relieved if its a lie then.. but reaksinyaa tak seperti tipu... i dont believe it.. after korek punya korek.. i think die mmg bgtau perkara y betol.. i cant tell if its true or lie.. n its a true story... im doomed...!! abeslaa... wat shud i doo... wat shud i say.. how shud i react then... still.. i dont know wat to do.. die cakap ntilaa... its 50-50...
my opinion on this...
-kalo sy ikutkan ati n nafsu.. sy akan cakap... "awk..jgn tunang..plizz..ikut kate hati awk..parents awk mgkin akn paham...awk..jangaaan.. maseh terlalu awal utk awk ke fasa itu..coz i know u.. i know how u behave.. i know wat u want"
-kalo ikutkn akal y bernas and as a fren who y xde pape perassan.. "kalo awk sukakn die n kate ati awk.. awk terimalaa... ikutlaa parents awk.." awk kne kuat....

-tp kan awk... ati sy kuat katekn jgn terima.. jangan awk.. jangan. sy tak tau nape.. tp sy harap sgt awk tak terima.... moga2 kate2 ati sy awk dpt dgr... hehee~~

awk...
sy xleh nk bt pape awk..
sy xleh nk halang awk dr terima..
sy xleh nk marah awk kalo awk terima...
sbb sy bukan sape2 kat awk..
sbb sapelaa sy ni kat awk..
sape sy tuk bt keputusan tuk awk..
sy hanye bole doakn tuk awk...

awaak....
sy hanye bole doakn tuk awk moga awk bahagia..
moga awk bt keputusan y betol...
moga awk gembira dgn ape jua y awk lalui...
bile awk gembira n bahagia..
sy pon akn turut bahagia....

awaak....
sy akn terima je pe y awk bt o decide..
sy xpenah lupa awk...
sbb awk tergolong dlm org y sy kasihi..
sy mmg xkn penah lupa awk...
sbb awk happykn sy secara xlgsg...

awaak...
sy nak awk tau y awk bole ckp ape je ngn sy...
awk bole ckp pasal pape je ngn sy...
sbb sy akn jd telinga awk...
sbb sy akn jd pendengar y setia tuk awk...
sy akn berkongsi duka awk...
sy nak awk tau y im right here to share..
if u r willing to share..
im willing to hear...
mgkin sy leh bantu awk...
tp sy boleh bantu dengar masalah awk...

awaak...
sy harap sgt awk tolak.. im sorry for being selfish to myself...
tp kalo awk terima. takpe laa..
mgkin awk bkn tuk sy...
sy akn terima...pe jua keadaanyaa...
sy takkan penah lupakan awk...
kalaupon nnti awk bkn tuk sy..
sy harap kita maseh kawan...!!

awk...
sy doakn y terbaek tuk awk...
sy doakan awk kuat...
segala y berlaku de hikmahnyaaa....
percayala awk ats Qada Qadar-Nya....
sy percaya awk dpt laluinyaa..
amin....

awak...
semoga awk dapat dengar n selami kata ati sy...
wpon sy tau awk tak mungkin bace ni..
wpon sy tau awk tak mungkin tau pasal ni...
wpon sy tau sy bertepuk satu tgn je...
wpon sy tay sy syok sendiri je...
tp takpe awk..
sy da heppy camni...
sy happy dapat kenal awk...

akhir kate sy tuk awk...

awk...
sy "suka" awk...

*sy tak tau makne sebenar cinta..kasih.. n sayang....
tp mgkin itu y sy rasekn ni...

luv..
enna y comot.. <3

..september ended already...

...september da end da... cepatnyee sebulan... raya pon abes lg.. ahahaa.. but for me,its done kot..still maseh de y bt open house.. hehehe~~
by the way.. this raya was a very meaningful raya... i love this raya.. hope the next n next raya pon cam ni jgak... but still there is one thing i could not achieve that raya.. n hope i will get it soon.. wat ever.. sooner o later dalink... hahaha~~

bukan raya je y bermakna... senang kate.. this is a good year for me.. n i hope next year will be better and properous... coz next year..de exam.. huhuuu.. hope i will pass it.. this year... i dunt know wat to say.. coz to many things happened.. i like n i love of wat happened to me..i hope these will last forever.. hope that my dream will come true bebeh....!!!

i juz need u to say that im fine even thow its not fine enuf for u to say... hahaha...
i will try one more.. if it failed..then i guess i need to stop.. ahhaha... stop for now..just follow the flow n get wat u want... u know what u want.. dont spoiled it... dont regret after all of wat had happened.. but u cannot paksa laa...

juz like wat i hold on...
"hold on if u can n if it yours... but, if its not yours juz let go.. if it come backs then it will be yours..." u juz need to believe n pray.. ehehe~~~

btw... thanks for those who being by my side...
thanks for the great september and great year...!!!
thanks for all who contributing.. ahhaaha...

sayooonara guys....!!!~~~
luv ya~~~