its october now..then, november..december... n no more 2010.. 2011 will come.. i dunt want another year full of surprise... but..wat to do. only He know what will happen.. the Al-Mighty...
last raya was amazing to me bcoz i got all i wanted except dat laa.. then..i continued my life as it is.. macam biasa.. pegi class..pegi wad.clerking all that things that im supposed to do..nothing much happen that gave a crack on my day until that one fine evening..... i got a news.. dunt know to classified it as a bad o a good news... hurmm...
sebabnya i dunt know... i really2 dunt know..
at first.. i doubt it..n i think it juz a fake news..n i told my self ..it was just a bad dream...o just kidding news... hahaha... wat i need to say... im juz speechless... dont know wat to say to u..really speechless.. bak kate org.. diluah mati mak ditelan mati bapak... sampaikan bole diibaratkn cam itu... sbb this news sgt2 terkesan kot... hahaha..
pada suatu hari y hening lg bosan.. after class..cam biasalaa balik bilik je online kalo rajin.. tapi most of time camtulaa... aissh..tp aritu xde p tgok ammar pulak.. sbb crite "ammar" tu xde kat tv..so juz sit dlm bilik je.. n online...
bosan punya bosan..tanpa fikir panjang... tergerak hati laa nk tegur seseorg ni... i got a feedback btw... n hav a short cit chat...
suddenly... die bgtau..y die akn bertunang... wat de heck is going on.... at first... im shocked ok...!! real shock punya.. tp xde laa sampai nk pengsan pulakk...coz die adalah seseorg bgku.. wpon aku xtau ape sebenarnya y ku rase.. y pasti im comfortable ngn die..i think i can be myself kot.. i dont need to pretend... im speechless.. dont know what to say.. but then.. sy control perasaan ni n buat2 cam xde perasan.. but actually..it snap my heart badly... after a while i try i believe that it was juz a fake.. a lie... but.. a whole nite n the next day also i cant stop myself from thinking bout it... t gave me a great effect...i cant sleep.. i even cant pay attention.... but my daily life as usual laa.. hehee~~ only a part of me are really affected by that..
then... i got t know that die saje mainkan sy..for awhile im relieved if its a lie then.. but reaksinyaa tak seperti tipu... i dont believe it.. after korek punya korek.. i think die mmg bgtau perkara y betol.. i cant tell if its true or lie.. n its a true story... im doomed...!! abeslaa... wat shud i doo... wat shud i say.. how shud i react then... still.. i dont know wat to do.. die cakap ntilaa... its 50-50...
my opinion on this...
-kalo sy ikutkan ati n nafsu.. sy akan cakap... "awk..jgn tunang..plizz..ikut kate hati awk..parents awk mgkin akn paham...awk..jangaaan.. maseh terlalu awal utk awk ke fasa itu..coz i know u.. i know how u behave.. i know wat u want"
-kalo ikutkn akal y bernas and as a fren who y xde pape perassan.. "kalo awk sukakn die n kate ati awk.. awk terimalaa... ikutlaa parents awk.." awk kne kuat....
-tp kan awk... ati sy kuat katekn jgn terima.. jangan awk.. jangan. sy tak tau nape.. tp sy harap sgt awk tak terima.... moga2 kate2 ati sy awk dpt dgr... hehee~~
awk...
sy xleh nk bt pape awk..
sy xleh nk halang awk dr terima..
sy xleh nk marah awk kalo awk terima...
sbb sy bukan sape2 kat awk..
sbb sapelaa sy ni kat awk..
sape sy tuk bt keputusan tuk awk..
sy hanye bole doakn tuk awk...
awaak....
sy hanye bole doakn tuk awk moga awk bahagia..
moga awk bt keputusan y betol...
moga awk gembira dgn ape jua y awk lalui...
bile awk gembira n bahagia..
sy pon akn turut bahagia....
awaak....
sy akn terima je pe y awk bt o decide..
sy xpenah lupa awk...
sbb awk tergolong dlm org y sy kasihi..
sy mmg xkn penah lupa awk...
sbb awk happykn sy secara xlgsg...
awaak...
sy nak awk tau y awk bole ckp ape je ngn sy...
awk bole ckp pasal pape je ngn sy...
sbb sy akn jd telinga awk...
sbb sy akn jd pendengar y setia tuk awk...
sy akn berkongsi duka awk...
sy nak awk tau y im right here to share..
if u r willing to share..
im willing to hear...
mgkin sy leh bantu awk...
tp sy boleh bantu dengar masalah awk...
awaak...
sy harap sgt awk tolak.. im sorry for being selfish to myself...
tp kalo awk terima. takpe laa..
mgkin awk bkn tuk sy...
sy akn terima...pe jua keadaanyaa...
sy takkan penah lupakan awk...
kalaupon nnti awk bkn tuk sy..
sy harap kita maseh kawan...!!
awk...
sy doakn y terbaek tuk awk...
sy doakan awk kuat...
segala y berlaku de hikmahnyaaa....
percayala awk ats Qada Qadar-Nya....
sy percaya awk dpt laluinyaa..
amin....
awak...
semoga awk dapat dengar n selami kata ati sy...
wpon sy tau awk tak mungkin bace ni..
wpon sy tau awk tak mungkin tau pasal ni...
wpon sy tau sy bertepuk satu tgn je...
wpon sy tay sy syok sendiri je...
tp takpe awk..
sy da heppy camni...
sy happy dapat kenal awk...
akhir kate sy tuk awk...
awk...
sy "suka" awk...
*sy tak tau makne sebenar cinta..kasih.. n sayang....
tp mgkin itu y sy rasekn ni...
luv..
enna y comot.. <3
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