..Letting go doesn't mean im giving up.

hye everyone...!!!~~~~
lame da i tak menulis yer... almost a month da.. and December almost wanna end.. and then my biggest fear...!!! oooouch...!! hard to get through this one.. how r..??
Dear God, please help me to get through this one first before my biggest fear on this April.. Bantulah hambamu ini dalam menjalani kehidupan sehariannya dan perkara yang memberi dugaan dan cabaran dalam hidupku... Ya Allah, permudahkan segala jalanku didunia dan diakhirat....Hanya kepadamu aku berserah.... amin~~~~

this month.. ape ygtelah berlaku eh...? ermm lemme think.... lalalalaalaa~``

ermmm nothing spesel kot.. ntahlaa... same as everyday xtvt.. yang pasti everyweek pasti ade jemputan kenduri.. aaaish... im glad for their happiness... as for me.. im happy as i am now.. im not yet ready for all those things.. but of coz sape yang tak terasa ngan benda2 tu... as my age everyone tgh belumba2 to get married... i dont know.. iim juz me.. im not ready to change my status yet.. im still me.. a gurl who believe in... a gurl who like fairytale... i believe that even my jodoh lambat asalkan i meet my Mr.Right... biarlaa berkahwin hanye sekali...

Mr. Right aka My tradisional man... ehhehee~~~~ ^_^
thats baru betol.. i love the man that learn from mistake..
i love the man who can get up strong after a fall...
i love the man who... dunt know wat else... ahahaha~~
hoping that i will meet him as what i wanted to.. of coz no one is perfect...
im not hoping for perfection. juzz nice pon ok ape.. hehee..
the one that can get my heart melt...
hahahaha~~~ mengarut da ni...
i know what i want... n i hope you all know what u want in this life...

I,me,myself, my family, Mr.Right...
i believe in Allah, my God.. The Al-Mighty....
i believe that there is still room for me...
i believe that i will get back what i lost...
i believe that everything happens for a reason..
i believe that my Mr,Right is somewhere out there...
only the matters of time je..
juz sit back, and pray... hehee...

i know that if u r not the one.. i believe that there is someone else better for me.. God had made us pairing.. i will let go of u... but doesnt mean im giving up..Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak...sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.. yes.. im strong to let go of u.. ive done it before.. im letting go of u before this.. thats mean i can do it again.. i will do if u r not for me.. i will do it if u r not mine.. i will do it if u r not my destiny...juz to see u happy and bahagia means a lot to me.. it make me happy seeing u happy enough..

hoping that everything will be as planned and at their place..

love,
..enna.. (^_^)V

..Salam Maal Hijrah 1432..

assalamualaikum wbt...
Salam Maal Hijrah sy ucapkan to all.. may this new year bring joys and luck to us... Moga segala urusan dipermudahkan oleh-Nya..dan tahun baru ini adalah tahun untuk menjadi lebih baik... yes.. i need that.. azam baru 1432H ni...
-i wanna forget everything sour in my past life and keep remembering the sweet one je.. hehee~~
-im living the present now n will always keep it up to max...
-im fighting for my future...for my karier..for my life.. for my family.. for my self.. i will improving myself... n taat pada y satu... amin~~~
-tak kesah ape y org ckp o pikir.. the only thing is u know what u want in ur life..
-enjoy every moments i have.. dont spoil it with tears or wateva..

the things that i want to achieve this year 1432H and the becoming 2011....
-the most important thing is i wanna pass my exam n becoming a good doctor...
-i wanna go n see the place i wanted to such as
:go bukit cahaya eh..? shah alam for flying fox aka skytrex..
:bungee jumping kot kat sunway
:teringin nk sky diving.. hehee~~ y ni xtaula eh bile bole dpt...
:olidayzz with family n fren... anywhere anytime n anyplace... ahahha
-mau ambik lesen B full boz i like high power motor aka motor berkuasa tinggi.. ducati, kawasaki.. hahaha~~ ntahlaa dpt permission ke x...
-after all these n after i keje bru pikir what next thing in my life...

ermmmm.........
before masuk tahun baru ni..actually im almost giving up da.. but somehow it show up again at the time when i feel lonely n giving up...coming again in my life made me feel happy... bersemangat.. even though i know its not gonna last long enough for me to enjoy it... but i have to... it made me smile tonite... =D

n the most sad part is i got high grade fever when entering new year... aiiyoo.. down~~ T_T
now, almost 3 days da.. maybe it was my peringatan... huhuu~~ i accept these Ya Allah.. only U know the best tuk hambanya... ade hikmah disebalik semua y berlaku ni.. ape y da berlaku since last month mungkin ade hikmahnyaa... only U know it... im almost drowning... n now u pull me back to the surface... maybe.. hope this will last... thanks to all...

love,
..enna who has heart full of love..