..past tense...

what should i say...?! what should i write here...?
hurrmm..... days passed by.. week by week.. days by days.. hours by hours.. minutes by minutes.. n seconds by seconds... nothing has change so far.. hurmm... all i need to do is wating. n waiting... penantian itu satu penyeksaan la... till when do i need to wait..? when...? errmm... all i can say is.. say nothing.. if not u will be the one who hurt the most... i terima keadaan ni... =(

i realized that this will happen... i know that this is going to end n i know how it end for me.. as usual.. u know it.. kinda like what u r expected laa...
one day u now him very well.. but one day u will lost him... like u never know him.. and then ur relationship will kabooom...!! dead end... this wat will happen.. i know.. all the guys are the same.. even they say they are not.. but thats the truth.. if ade guy yang tak macam tu.. sila la bawak jumpa saya.. i wanna know him.. n lets see wat will happens.. hahahaa.. if u wanna know.. lets roll down.................
ju
once upon a time...
i know a man.. a guy.. oh nops... 2 guys.. at the same time because of our same interest... what interest..? biarlaa rahsia....
they are so amazing in treating gurl.. immature girl i guess... hahaha... coz i know im not mature enough to be in this circle... hahahaa...
wat eva pon i am happy bcoz i knew them juz for a short while...

we started to get to know each other.. brief meeting.. n perkenalan y singkat.. time by time... we started to get together.. we played together... lepaking same2.. makan2 same2.. its juz right that time.. and it just a happy hour... but someone did not like it... n i had to bear with it.. because i think he juz felt insecure...
whoever know me very well can tell that im a loyal person... they juz ignore that fact.. what can i do if they cannot believe in me n its very sad if u urself cannot believe urself.. pity laa.... ok..back to the story.........

one point.. we travel together...to east cost.. thats all i can tell.. hahaa...
yeah.. it was a great memory.. great travelling... n great friendship though...
because that trip... the greatest memory carved in my tiny blackbox.. hehhee~~~
i will never forget these....

then.. in every relationship..there must be always lemon taste.. hahaa.. yeah.. thats it.. but we barely can through it.. n im stuck in the middle.... i juz keep silence.. coz i dunno how to solve.. hahhaa.. jahatnyee... tak tolong langsung.. tapi ape boley buat.. its the fact... sorry for everything....

actually...i am close to one of them... He.. how i wanted to describe him eh... hurmmm.... he's tall...not so thin.. hahaa... hakikatnye lelaki sume tinggi laa.. hahaha... fair skin..average weight.. n pretty good looking.. but he's not malay...
when ever im in doubt.. or when im in misery.. he will be my side. when im down.. even when im crying... im crying in front of him... embarrassing moments.. ahhahaa... but, he did not anything.. im pleased juz he was by my side.. he listened..he tried at least..im happy by him doing that je.. hehee~~ everything about him i know.. i even went to his house.. not to forget to both their's houses.. hahahaa.. 3 of us juz like belangkas da kot.. hahahah...
one nit.. he told me that he like me.. that time.. yep i hav the same feeling.. i liked him.. juz as a fren...yeke..? ahhaa... only God knew that... but we had decided that we will remain as frens... till the day we apart.. till now.. im not sure wat happened between us three...only God knows.... i cant tell more from this.. because i dunno... how it will ends.. as what i know.. we juz torn apart.. like now what ive been through... sorry...............!!
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P/S: my rojak english.. o is this english anyway.. hahahaha...sorry~~
..this is juz a story.. not involving the living and the dead.. I,he,them.. were not true. this is juz too good to bee true... peace no war...!!!

hav a good day u olls...

love...
enna "heartless"